It’s is 6:00pm on Tuesday evening. I’ve been awake for three hours. Why? I wasn’t able to fall asleep until around 7:00am.
Well hello there insomnia, it’s been a while.
Yep. My insomnia is back and it’s doing its best to make my life miserable. Granted, if we’re being real, I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in months but this being awake until the sun comes up is not my favorite thing in the world.
I recognize that stress is a huge factor and I am dealing with a lot of stress right now. Writing has been a part of it but there’s also some other things going on that I won’t be putting into blog form. I put a lot here, but some things just gotta remain personal.
I’m a ball of anxious stress.
I haven’t left the house today unless you want to count my 5:00am run to Starbucks which seemed like a good idea at the time. Granted, I don’t drink coffee so I got myself a hot chocolate and it was delicious. It’s been super cold here in Florida so it hit the spot.
I was hoping to get some writing done and I probably still will but I’ve been unable to find the motivation to really get things doing. I know I’m in the midst of a depression which isn’t helping much at all.
Frankly, my brain is going a bit haywire and there’s nothing to do but let it run its course.
Which sucks because all I want to do it be a productive person and I barely have the energy to move from one room of the house to the other. It took me an hour just to finally make it to the couch and my laptop.
I did get a little bit of editing done and once I’m done with this I’ll go back and do some more. I’m determinded to accomplish something, anything today.
I’m not going to count ordering food. I mobile ordered some Chinese because the idea of going out into the world is too much and talking to people it hard. It helped that the delivery guy seemed just as unenthused about human interaction as I was so that was short and sweet.
Now there’s the getting through this.
One step at a time.
Sorry I have nothing more interesting to say.
I’m gonna go eat my Chinese food.